~Rusty117

FUCK. Fuck.

FUCK.

I know that shit is coming but i didn't see it. Now I can't fucking draw. Two days ago, i popped open photoshop and drew an assload of stuff. Now? nothing. i'm starting at a blank photoshop doc. What the fuck is going on? I have no clue. It's pissing me off. Maybe it's the fact that orientation's coming up. That shouldn't be bothering me that much. I have shit to draw. I have to do cola's thing. but what the fuck why can't i do anything. i'm still doing that realistic thing. why can't i do that?

i don't fucking know. But that time, that time where i look at a blank piece of paper, or a blank screen, all DAY and don't do anything, it's fucking here and it sucks.

I just realized how much I suck at drawing. It's disappointing. I haven't done much to improve, either.

What I'm doing right now is tracing a drawing, opening a new photoshop document, and drawing something in that style - currently, it's Yoko from Gurren Lagann. I want to do a simple Photoshop painting, just her sitting there with the rifle. Unfortunately, I can't even do that. I suck so bad at correct anatomy it HURTS, and I've realized how good the "anime style" can really be. These people do it very well. The end result is supposed to look pretty much the same. Not because I want to draw like that, or any other stupid shit. I just want to try doing something in a style that is more complicated and difficult to understand than mine, so I can have a better range. Right now? It's not going so well. Oh, and I can't draw boobs very well. That's going to hinder me when I get past the very basics of this drawing.

yeah the above are lyrics to "Take On Me" by A-ha

So basically I got a couple of things done that I was supposed to, and went right back to TF2. That game is fuckin' addicting. In any case, I guess I'm good with Demo, Scout, and...what, Medic? Heavy? Shit, it's not that hard to be a good heavy, to be honest. Stay with the medic, know where the sentries are, don't die. You're good to go.

Oh hey, we have head lice. Haha, and today we were supposed to have some sort of party for my mom's soccer mom friends, and it was like "Hey mom my head itches" yesterday. And turns out everyone has LICE! Yaaay

So now I'm sitting here with a ridiculous ponytail in my hair. A few hours ago, it was a hairnet filled with oil. And I still have fucking nits.

: |

Ugh, my eyes hurt so bad

But yeah, I like this new version thing okay, if any of you were wondering. No complaints.

Oh hey, I've got a bunch of shit to do, right? So let's get on that. I've been playing my new Xbox 360 for a while, and it's about time I got to doing shit. So let's lay it down:

- Bored Index strip
- Spastik Faec
-- Aku look alike (ask Cola)
-- Steam monster (ask cola again)
- This-guy's thing

That's just shit I need to do for other people. I also want to do something about my website, and its relative inactivity. I also have a secret project that's been on hold for a bit.

By they way, I've been playing the Orange Box on my brand new 360 since my birthday. I beat all the beatable games, and I play TF2 a lot. My gamertag's Imightberusty1. I also have Halo 3, but that's about it.

Of course, I should have gotten TOB for PC, but I have a mac, and it's not even mine, so my parents wouldn't go for all the conversion shit.

Anyway, golly. I'm in a pretty mellow mood. Kinda bored, really.

Again, I am not annoyed. Deviantart's just stupid.

Anyway, yeah, turning fifteen tomorrow.

yup.